Figuring it out.

Unlike some people, I never knew what I wanted to do. I never had a goal in mind to be a doctor or a lawyer or a business executive (as the song 'Little Boxes' quotes!)
I always had ideas and thoughts but never could decide, it felt like closing a door which I didn't like the idea of. Things like nursing, teaching, childcare, singing, outdoorsy stuff and photography.

They always told us at school to do what we enjoyed, for me, that meant the arts: music: through the choirs and the musicals and history of art, as well as a photography club.
But outside of school, I started filming and editing and taking a hell of a lot of photographs.
and now I realise that is what I want to do.

Last night, I went to a wedding and shot all the footage for their video, as well as some photographs, it was a beautiful night and I was so happy for them, and also so happy to be filming for them.

I want to create and edit and compose, I want to film and direct.
It feels so good to know now but at the same time, so many other people want to do the same thing, so many other people are more talented, so many other people have the same dream.

But this is what I want to do, so I will try my best. All I've ever wanted in the world of work is to do something I enjoy. Is that so much to ask?

What are your thoughts?

Ellie x

PS Can I also add how much I love weddings, celebrating the love and commitment between two people, while surrounded by their closest friends and family, it was beautiful! And also it is highly entertaining watching drunk people dance towards the end of the night. Congratulations to the happy couple!